I Knew It From Your Shoes

Shoes is more than just a footwear. It reflects your personality based on what's your choice.

Bare Foot: If you like being bare foot, they are attractive, carefree, happy and a little careless. They have instant solutions for their friend’s problems. They spread happiness where ever they go.

 Flip Flops: they are energetic, gutsy, and honest. They are trust worthy and turn out to be true friends.  

Platform Heels: They are Fashion conscious and comfort conscious at the same time. They are independent and don’t like to sling on people.

 

Closed front Flats Shoes: they take life very easily. They are very honest and hard working. They like playing pranks.

Ballerinas: they follow the rituals and traditions religiously. They are Daddy's girls and very intelligent when it comes to studies. They are polite, soft spoken and had working.

 

Pointed court shoes: they are very responsible and responsibility seeking. They can find a easy way out in any circumstances. They cannot work in an organised manner though but still they get work done by hook or crook.

 Clogs: they work very slowly, but they are not lazy. They are hard working and spiritual. But their lives are messy.

Sneakers: they are cool headed and relaxed. They are open minded and conscious about their health and body. They like updating their knowledge. And they know about the latest trends.

 

Peep Toes/ Front Open Shoes: these are very attractive and generally attract everyone's attention.

 

High Heels: they are very confident. They can solve multi problems simultaneously. They have certain goals in life. They have power and status. 

 Flats: they are open-minded. They are independent decision makers. Women undertaking creative careers are inclined towards flats. They give more importance to comfort than fashion.  

So which one is yours? 

Sunday Morning

Know it sounds funny
But I just can't stand the pain
Girl I'm leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know I've done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed
Ooh, that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
Why in the world
Would anyboddy put chains on me?
I've paid my dues to make it
Everbody wants me to be
What they want me to be
I'm not happy when I try to fake it!
No!
Ooh,that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like sunday morning

 What makes Sunday morning lovely? Because it's easy.

Be as easy as Sunday morning. Wipe the tears away. What happened yesterday never brings you down today.

You Are Bigger Than Your Problem

Human life is the source of problems.

Is it a BIG one? Or just a small one? 

It all depends on how someone sees through something he's facing.

Kebanyakan orang bakal berpikiran kalau masalah apa yang sedang dia hadapi adalah masalah yang paling berat dibandingkan dengan masalah orang lain. Jadi ga jarang dengan mind set seperti itu orang jadi berubah mengkasihani dirinya sendiri. 

Everyone's allowed to feel blue, but never drown your self into the sea of blue.

Saya hampir saja mengalami hal itu. Alhamdulillah ada seorang teman saya yang mengingatkan buat SENYUM. A simple healing method. Trus disuruh buka Al-Qur'an surat Al-Baqarah : 286.

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakan. (Mereka berdoa) : Ya Tuhan kami, jangan Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau bersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan pada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan pada orang - orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan pada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Beri maaflah kami, ampunilah kami dan rahmatilah kami. Engkau Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir." (Q.S Al-Baqarah : 286)

Subhanallah. Tambah deres meweknya. But in the next second I realize : I AM NOT THAT PATHETIC. Bismillah, I can through this! I have to! Allah always with me.

 Thanks to Maretha Primariayu for reminding that I have Allah.

And a huge thanks to Niken Adiba Nadya for always being there for me.

How to Have an Affair and Not Get Caught?

Cheating on someone is not an easy thing to decide to do. On one end, you may want to have an affair because your love life sucks. On the other end, you think of the repercussions that having an affair might bring on your finances, your family life and your social standing.

Let’s get one thing straight – if you DO NOT PLAN YOUR MOVES PROPERLY, you will probably get caught cheating on your spouse.

THE KEY: Maintaining control over your affair partner is the *ONLY* surefire way to make sure YOU are PROTECTED

Maintaining control implies that your significant other NEVER thinks you are cheating. Your partner in an affair should never compromise or put you at risk with your spouse.

Being honest with yourself and your needs is a important part of having a successful illicit encounter. The person that can always best fool you is always … yourself. Not being honest with yourself is extremely dangerous. Understanding what you’re doing at all times plays an important part in not getting caught having an affair.

The Logistical Affair Risks

Your significant other finds out you are having an affair by a logistical oversight that is your fault. Read: mobile phone logs, text messages or non-discarded email messages. Forgetting to destry financial information, like dinner bills, debit or credit card statements, lipstick on your collar, etc…

The Social Risks – Losing Social Standing & Friends

Having an encounter within your own social circle (i.e.: someone from little league), you can risk losing MUCH MORE than your family. Every person has a reputation to protect – and it must be guarded at al cost. You have close common friends. The nippers. People have a certain amount of respect for you. If you are found to be the person that ‘keeps fucking around behind someone’s back’ in any social circle, you will almost certainly lose your social standing.

The Emotional Affair Risks – Choose Short Over Long Term

Getting emotionally involved in an affair is always a bad idea. Emotions generally lead to bad choices and compound sets of logistical mistakes. This is the main reason to choose short term affairs over long term drawn out episodes. Short = sweet + easy to leave.

The Financial Risks – Losing Everything You Worked So Hard For

Exposure of adultery impact business and financial situations for many people. Affair knowledge can be misused by greedy people, looking to advance their own purpose. Blackmail is a de-facto issue and concern here. 

REMEMBER:
When both parties are playing the same high-stakes game, risks TO YOU are MINIMIZED.

 http://affair-guide.com/haveaffair/affairs101

Four Years Ago

The same date
The same time
Four years ago
You were someone
The same date
The same time
Now
You are no one
People changed
You've changed
So have I
Nobody knows how to keep a heart on its track
You could love someone in a second
And in the next second it turns to a damage
A damage no one can fix
A damage nothing can heal
But time
Just time

p.s : This used to be our song

When a Man Loves a Woman

When a man loves a woman
Can't keep his mind on nothing else
He'd trade the world
For a good thing he's found
If she is bad, he can't see it
She can do no wrong
Turn his back on his best friend
If he puts her down

A phrase of an old song by Percy Sledge recorded in 1966 - far before I was born. Listening to this song, catching every single word arranged beautifully, freezing, thinking : how sweet it is to be loved that way.
A movie titled the same, in 1994, starring Meg Ryan and Andy Garcia, tell the story about an airline pilot and his wife are forced to face the consequences of her alcoholism when her addictions threaten her life and their daughter's safety. While the woman enters detox, her husband must face the truth of his enabling behavior.

 A man who'll do anything for his woman, someone who stole his heart. And it seems like he's dying when she's not around. Don't you think that's lovely? Love is blind, but don't be blinded by love for doing such a fool. Logic and heart, two things against each other, but they have to walk in the same pathway. Easy? Who says so? I don't. But that's the thing everyone must do.

You never know who's falling in love with your silly laugh, nor when you're thinking that nerd-looked-guy sitting in the corner is cute. I believe that everyone has their own match, in the right time, in the right place, and in the right way. :)

p.s : dear my someone somewhere out there, I'm here missing you.

Grenade

Easy come Easy go
That's just how you live oh
Take take take it all
But you never give
Should of known you were trouble
From the first kiss had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked 

cause what you don't understand is id catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on the blade for ya
Id jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
See I would go through all this pain 

Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for ya baby, but you won't do the same
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm am numb 

Tell the devil I said hey when you get back to where you're from
Bad women bad women
That's just what you are yeah
You smile in my face than rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash yes you did

To give me all your fucking love is all I ever asked 

But what you don't understand is id catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on the blade for ya

Id jump in front of a train for ya

You know I'd do anything for ya

Listen babe I would go through all this pain 

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes I would die for ya baby, but you won't do the same

If my body was on fire ooh 

You would watch me burn down in flames

You said you loved me 

You're a liar 

cause you never ever ever did baby... 

 This song is dedicated to you. Thanks for taking me so high and drop my feet back to the ground. You never worth anything from me, even a single tear or a piece of heart. I deserve something more than just a YOU.

Dokter Muda

Dokter muda. Mungkin kedengarannya keren, oke, eksklusif. Terutama bagi yang belum tahu. Sedikit berbagi saja. Aku salah satu dari mereka. Yang memakai jas putih - yah meskipun udah agak abu - abu kebanyakan dicuci, yang mengalungkan stetoskop di leher - sumpah ini bukan mau pamer tapi dimana lagi bisa naruh stetoskop yang cepat dan gampang diambil saat butuh kalo saku jas udah penuh kertas catatan follow up pasien dan bolpoin?, yang paling gampang buat dimintain tolong (baca : disuruh - suruh), dan yang merupakan penghuni kasta terendah seantero rumah sakit.

Tugas dokter muda (biasanya dipanggil dengan sebutan KOAS plus bonus mbak/mas di depannya) berbeda di tiap bagian.

Misalnya nih ya, koas bedah. Ini lab pertamaku selama menjalani koas di RS. Enak banget. Dateng pagi ikut morning report (MR)-nya PPDS - dokter yang lagi ambil sekolah spesialisasi - itupun cuman dengerin. Ga ada kewajiban apa - apa. Ga ada jaga malem sih, cuman tiap hari musti dateng ke RS buat absen malem. Berasa tahanan kota. Yang paling berat di stase bedah ini cuman pas interen aja. Lamanya 2 minggu itu koasnya tugas di UGD. Jam kerja gila - gilaan. Mata sepet nahan ngantuk, kaki gempor berasa mau patah. Gimana enggak, siapa sih yang tahan melek 2x24 non stop dan cuman dapet jatah istirahat 8 jam? Tapi emang sih interen bedah banyak skill yang bisa dipelajari, meskipun otak rasanya kosong soalnya ga sempet nanya - nanya uda keburu diserbu pasien. 

Koas interen bedah yang kelaparan ngemilnya es lilin ala UGD

Humm next forensik. Lab setelah bedah. Setiap hari menunggu di ruang ratapan koas di lantai 2. Berusaha membunuh waktu dengan main game Plants vs Zombie, nonton film, ngemil, nggosip, sambil berdoa semoga ga ada panggilan buat otopsi, atau paling enggak yg mau diotopsi itu masih dalam keadaan "baik - baik saja". Ah tapi apa daya kalo emang akhirnya harus otopsi korban drowning dan infanticide. Lumayan. Lumayan berat.

Ada yang kesenengan abis otopsi sampe ga mau copot handschoen

Koas ilmu penyakit dalam (IPD) tuh yang paling lama, 3 bulan. Setiap pagi harus visite pasien buat follow up, harusnya sih sebelum PPDSnya dateng. Tapi buat seorang aku -last minute man- mana mungkin lah itu? Hihihi. Pasiennya banyak di bangsal. Permintaan cito (segera) dari PPDS juga banyak, dan itu tugasnya koas. Mulai ambil darah, EKG, sampai nge-drip. Yang paling berat waktu jaga malem. Ga jarang lo ga sempet mandi - padahal kalo ga jaga juga sering ga mandi - dan ga jarang juga ga tidur semaleman ngeladenin komplain dari pasien. Macem - macem komplainnya, mulai dari panas, nyeri, mual, ga bisa tidur, sampai ga bisa BAB. Banyak kerjaan tapi banyak ilmunya. Capek tapi seneng. Mau jadi koas IPD lagi? Oh tentu tidak.

Mesin EKG cuman ada 2 buat pasien segitu banyak. Jadi kemana - mana harus gantian. Bawanya pake gledekan ini. Yah ga jauh beda ama yang jual es tongtong. Makanya ga ada yang suka kalo disuruh EKG tengah malem, berisik.

Beda lagi dengan koas ilmu kesehatan anak (IKA). Ini koas bagging, ventilator manual. Duduk berjam - jam di depan infant warmer yang panasnya naudzubillah sambil kempus - kempus ambubag. Tangan kram, pantat udah datar aja. Buat yang pengen gedein lengan atas bisa nih pake cara ini. Ada seorang temenku yang menurutku cerdas. Dia ukur lingkar lengan atas sebelum masuk dan sesudah keluar IKA. Hasilnya? Bertambah beberapa sentimeter dalam beberapa bulan. Mengerikan.

Salah satu cara "mengoperasikan" ambubag

"Kompetensi" lain koas IKA adalah menggotong tabung oksigen. Dan tabung ini berat.

Sekarang aku lagi stase di bagian radiologi. Sumpah berasa surga. Ga ada MR. Ga ada jaga malem. Yah meskipun mas - mas bagian administrasinya agak rese tapi biarin aja lah. Kasih lirikan maut juga uda klepek - klepek dianya. Di radiologi ini belajar menerawang. Semuanya monokrom, hitam putih. Harus nyari yang lebih putih dari yang putih, dan yang lebih hitam dari yang hitam. Bingung? Sama.

Banyak cerita tentang kehidupan dokter muda. Ga semuanya baik. Ga semuanya buruk. Ga semuanya bisa ditulis di blog ini. Apalagi kalo uda jam segini dan besok bangun pagi buat stase. Hoooaahhmm.

Newbie

Okay, saya memang pendatang baru di dunia blog. Yah mungkin lebih tepat dikatakan cuman angin - anginan  atau ikut - ikut. Tapi tidak ada salahnya kan mencoba sesuatu yang baru? Mungkin sesuatu yang ajaib bisa dimulai dari sini. Tidak ada yang tahu apa yang akan terjadi esok hari.